John Glenn Doromal

It Hurts No More

Teary eyes,
On rainy nights,
Weak stimulus but still fights,
Reminiscing the flame of love
we failed to endure…
I can still feel the pain left uncured.

I know I’m not the best,
And I know I’m not the least.
I may not be the cutest,
And I definitely know am not the ugliest.

Billions of people surrounded the planet.
And yet nothing compares…
No one can ever be you.
Because, there is none like you.

I will embrace this pain
that flows into my vein.
Tears shower like it rains,
Depression strikes like lightning.
And the insanity begins.

I learn to accept it,
I refrain from fighting it,
Fake smiles got me exhausted.
Crying is just for a kid.

And now am starting to
Carry on,
Moving on,
Hanging on
and seek another one to hold on.

I feel the pain and now, it hurts no more.

I took the time to think of it
over and over again,
And now I’ve come up to
assessed my future is vain.
I know when you love you also anticipate pain,
a pain that is worthy to enclosed in my journey.
And not the ravage pain that you can fritter away.

I’ve been so in love and I desire to have you,
You accord so you commit and i commit to you.

You are so sweet and I as well,
we blissfully shared moments together like a fairytale.

As the count of days gone by we cultivate the love we had.
We give time to each other even if many are getting mad.

Love indeed takes sacrifice,
It caused the tears in your eyes.

Trials, struggles & challenges may come along but hold on,
Keep the commitment strong and continue to go on.

In the long run I observed,
You’re getting paranoid my beloved.
My love has then faded.
Because i thought you were you,
but you disguise as if I’ll tolerate you.

i don’t want to be fake,
that’s why i hit the break.
I want to stop this and take
the mess is at it stake.

I perceived, I visualized, I let go.
I will never stay unless you will do something.
Something that will pleased and keep me breathing.
I did my part and i wish you’ll do yours so.

That’s why i say good bye to you.
I was so wrong to say I Love You.

John Glenn Doromal is my name and I am only 18 years of age, a student here in Davao city, a second year college. An ordinary young man who is fond of surfing the net. I usually making fun of exchanging messages and meeting friends in my Friendster account. And i never thought and never expect that Prince Monsour Zainal Abraham Buayan Andavit is already one of my friend list. One day he sent a smile and i replied and visit his profile, i was astonished by the wealth and assets on his pictures. In my surprise i was shocked that he is really a Royal Majesty, a prince. I also wondered why does he has a long hair. Anyway, that’s the start of our friendship we are exchanging messages. He always inspired me with his words, and it greatly penetrated in my heart and mind. It’s very enlightening for me the messages that he always dropped. He keep on saying that i should study hard, work hard, love your parents, magpakabait, ayaw sa’ pag-uyab2, dapat laging masaya, he always encouraging me about running a business and have faith in God. He never rely only to his wealth because when he’s still young for about 12yrs. old he’s late grandfather had let him run a business. And he is also a typical student like me before but the difference is that he is a Prince hahaha with body guards. I will not expose the details too much. Let’s go over the time when he’s courting me even though i’m a gay hahaha… we exchange our Yahoo ID’s and that’s the time we started to talk through YM’s yahoo voice. We had talked for 3 consecutive days from night til dawn we talked for more than an hours. And i felt so honored to talk to him. A Prince turned a Sultan (when he’s late Father died last Dec. 28, 2008), a business tycoon, a billionaire who is talking to a simple ordinary young man here in Davao City. He’s boyfriend is the most lucky one to have him. I am so proud of the Royal Majesty that he is proud of showing who he really is, keep things real and magpakatotoo talaga, to set yourself free so that you will enjoy life as it is. I’m so inspired of his life story i wont tell more the details about him i’ll still ask for permission.

He is a very kindhearted Prince, very, very down to earth imagine that he is open to everyone whether you are poor or rich, he taught me to become confident and be shameless because you wont become rich unless you become confident and not ashamed to deal with others. He said that we’re just the same, we eat the same rice and there’s no reason to get intimidated. He told me stories about his experiences with his friends, his boyfriends and more… hahaha… I really had fun talking to him. he is very talkative and open to everything. He is nice to me and kind. He always share with me about businesses that he will help me because he found out that i am a nice person and kind. We both like and love our mothers. He said that he got a lot of friends from the showbiz, politicians, and many more prominent persons.

“Having him as a friend, adviser, may baby, my prince, is already a wealth, an invisible wealth that is worthy to keep forever.”

ashlee Posted 5/1/2007 h8 mYseLf, im CoNfUsEd,i sMokE/dRiNk..im WeAk inSyd AnD oUt..my LiFeS a MeSS,,,tOtaL wrEck..im stUcK..i niD pEaCe,LoVe And FreEdom!!!!!!!! > im so tired of lyf. i feel like gving up and letting myself rot away. i wish wtever 8 is dat makes me feel dis way would crawl out and die. ive lost touch w/ everything. i have no appetite, even when im hungry.i have no motivation. my emotions are out of control. the smallest things make me break down. nobody cares. my family doesnt even take the situation seriously. it doesnt bother me much tho, becuz i lack feeling for anyone. i dont want to be a burden. im just tired of pushing people away, but i cant help it. i hate myself. and at the same time i like who i am. i want to let them know, but then i feel like an attention whore. everything about me is a contradiction. > Dont you just hate it when people say they could help when they really couldn’t???…its like saying.."COME I CAN HELP YOU!… I KNOW FRIGGIN PROBLEMS AND I UNDERSTAND!"…> Gosh I feel like im going downward spiral where everything swell as emotions go down by… who would’ve thought that I…myself, could have her… people wont just mind their DamNn businesses…so Im sorry that im not racist enuff to be part of the stupid thing… gah!!! people these daysss!!!…. ahahahaha gosh I have my ways to get what I want… My life itself is just made up of Forced smiles…and quiet tears… there really is no way for Love to save you! If you think that way then your enigmatic stupidity has taken over you!!! and I must say your brain is pretty infected..